Wednesday, December 31, 2008
i spent the rest of the day hobbling around the hospital as each step aggravated the glass cuts on the sole of both my feet. it wasn't a busy day and I couldn't get anyone to replace my work for it was a public holiday and too many people are out-station. Not only that, I know that the responsibility was on me to make sure that my patients are doing well and that I don't compromise my work standards and the patient care.
thus i was praying very hard for a good call and it was relatively good actually. i managed to rest and there wasn't much trouble in the wards. i was very touched by all the people calling and messaging me, asking about how i was doing and all the good messages on facebook.
the next morning i woke up to a very beautiful morning. the birds were singing so sweetly, the colours of nature so vibrant and the air felt so fresh and sweet. I resolve to be a much better daughter, sister, friend & doctor. Even with the bruises, cuts, minor sprains and PTSD flashbacks, I felt great about life. Thank you very very much for your prayer and good wishes.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Around 7.30 am on Monday morning, as I was driving back towards Diamond Cove, I over-steered on a bend on a slippery road (rained the whole night before) and before I knew what happened, I lost control of the car. My steering wheel started spinning on its own and my brakes didn't work.
This is the first time I experienced hydro-planing, the sensation of skidding and swerving without any control on puddles of water on an old, trunk road lined with a thin layer of water. I wasn’t going very fast by Malaysian standards but my little Myvi is probably too light for stability and thus I started spinning and the no matter how I tried to control the steering wheel, nothing seemed to work.
My mind went numb and I was in a shock. A few milliseconds later, my car hit the banks of the road and went into a ditch lined with soft grass. I thought the grass cushioned the impact and preserved me from further damage. I landed side-ways and was hanging in my seat with the left side of the car smashed in and all the side mirrors smashed.
My only thought at that time was that I must get out from the car. Trapped on all four sides, I tried the switches and the mirror actually rolled down. I switched off the engine and as passersby approached, they helped pulled me out of the wreckage.
I turned back and gasped at how my car looked. I could see the entire undercarriage as it landed partially on the roof. Some of the kind people helped to right the car so that I could take my things out as I called my friends for help. Some folks actually recognized me from the hospital as many people stopped by, some to offer good advice while others to take photographs of the incident and even of me shuddering by the roadside.
To be continued….
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Dreams maketh the man and not the other way round. After an inspiring message from my senior pastor in the last Sunday service of 2008, I've moving towards a closure to the turbulent year of 2008. Coincidentally, my personal driving force seems to echo the ethos of Obama, the very Agent of Change. I believe that dreams drive a person on, insofar as changes to oneself and a nation urges us forward and gives us the practical and realistic impetus to act upon our lives.
I am a dreamer. I love to visualize and IMHO, without vision, would perish. Some people said that a planner might be too rigorous, too systematic in his or her life. I beg to differ..dreams offer a form of structure, a clear framework of the direction that we are taking. Of course we cannot have a tunnel-like vision but we should allow our dream to evolve, to take a broader and flexible shape as we mature in life. That's the beauty of the sermon that I heard today, the inspiration of today's blog entry.
I believe too that each of us can be an agent of change, hopefully for the better. Changes can sweep an individual, a community and even a nation. Changes move our spiritual, mental and physical inertia into fruitful energy. I detest inactivity unless the rest is purposeful. A purpose-driven life is one that brings about transformation all around our oikos (Greek for community).
The idea that each of us are destined for greater things and could be agents of change inspired me that we should not be contented to think of only what we can achieve today, but what we can achieve in the future. Tangible advancements in various civilizations shape the current world.Although individual heroes stood out throughout history, the mark of civilization is when the whole collective, united community reaches a golden era for that particular point in time.
That's why I visualize the future..how the subsequent generations would define this current generation. Are we going to be the generation of selfish overachievers who grabs at every opportunity without a thought to the downtrodden, or a generation of magnanimous and noble people whereby in each heart resides a generous and tolerant spirit?
Well, judging from what’s been happening year in and year out, I’ve decided to ditch all my previous resolutions out the window and revamped my entire wish list.
Here goes my proper resolution for 2009 (and what the heck, maybe the entire decade!). For the first time in my life, I could actually, possibly achieve some of it.
1. Run a half-marathon by mid-year without stopping and within decent time
2. Climb Mount Kilimanjaro within 2-3 years and then to Everest Base Camp
3. Become a surgeon (and probably a world-famous one not long after that)
4. Live as a missionary doctor in somewhere amazingly obscure
5. Stop procrastinating (and I am serious about it)
6. Take absolutely stunning photographs with my own dslr camera
7. Be less bossy AND definitely less of a perfectionist (hey, I’m still a nice person)
8. Travel around the world on a back-pack and my saxophone
9.Take good care of my parents and siblings (life-time goal actually)
10. Produce, write and sing/play on my own album (preferably jazz-themed)
Monday, December 22, 2008
1. the lights and trees are all up
2. numerous malls and street decor with non-specific themes
3. the people all rushing to buy gifts for one another
4. massive queues near ATMs (to coincide with the year-end bonus)
Yeah, Christmas-time is here and we could really feel the atmosphere chilling down to tropical 'winter wonderlands'
Judging at how warm our country is, the closest we get to winter are the massive shopping malls and offices. After all, people dress up very warmly to work just because the air-cond are on full blast. One of my Christmas wish list is that we go back to environment conservation and work towards reducing the need of air-cond in buildings or cooling down buildings using renewable energy like solar power, etc, etc...
If not, pretty soon, people will forget that Christmas is one of the holiest season in the calendar, commemorating the birth of our Saviour and reminding us that we are forgiven and beloved. It is a season of love, forgiveness, peace and good-will.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
So it came as a surprise to myself as I willingly surrendered one of the most ticklish part of my body to Dr Fish (not a colleague of mine), also known as Garra Rufa fish that hails from Turkey. I mean, if Dr Fish is a hot bloke from Turkey, I think I will be much more obliging to the 'mini-torture session' but I convinced myself that once I parted with the cash, I know I will go through it no matter what..die, die must try.
Firstly, we start with the warm up pool at the entrance. The fish here are smaller, thus milder in their feeding habits. They served as a warm-up tool for us in order to endure the 30 mins of tickling. After all, we want to indulge in the 'skin-smoothening' pool, i.e. the real deal asap.
Some people, like my lovely friend, here are more ticklish than others and she nearly died from laughters. Literally. In fact, she was laughing so much that she induced the three of us, not-so-ticklish people to laugh as well. I personally find that this place is pretty therapeutic to the emotional self as people destress a lot when they laugh..and releases a lot of happy endorphins into their bloodstream, thus feeling a rush of happy emotions.
Have someone forgotten the joke? You can see people happily chatting, drinking tea, reading newspapers and cheating (yes, PS, we can see you lifting your feet away from the pool)...
Then we graduated to the big-fish pool..the ones with the biggest fish that proves to be most efficient and exfoliative. This one PS gave a miss so that she didn't get diaphragmatic cramps. Yeah, apparently non-stop laughter can give u that. At least, Michelle, Sany and I managed to keep the laughters down and continued with the therapy.
Anyhow, this is how we began and ended the fish spa experience. Cleaning up the calves and feet. Hhhmm...I wonder if any of us will be up for a full-body experience eh? Definitely not PS!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Anyway, on one clear weekend, three weird doctors decided that its time to escape to a nearby island and smell the sea breeze. Therefore, since i was supposed to go to the northern region for a conference, we decided to stop by Penang for a visit.
This seems to be a very posh, private place as the cable car was not opened yet (btw, it is just reopened recently so couch potatoes can zoom straight up to the hill) and we dined in peace, surrounded by water lilies, roses, begonias and not much of insects (strangely so)
we were the only ones taking breakfast that morning..but it was a very beautiful day. the birds were chirping and the flowers were blooming brightly.
i was busy admiring and capturing the flowers on my camera too while contemplating on the wonders of God..His amazing creations.
Anyway, we made it up in 1 piece other than the fact i was so hypoglycaemic that i took Vico powder like as if its power gel. and so painfully slow that i was hating myself. literally. aiseh. Also remember the fact that it was so early, I wore my most ah-mah shorts and ended up not very happy with myself. Nvm, lessons learnt.
Monday, December 15, 2008
You see, I was the designated 'number 1 supporter' for my 3 other friends running in the Singapore International Marathon due to my tardiness in signing up. Thus, I woke up darn early on a public holiday after playing with my extremely naughty nieces and nephews who were jumping around me (and on me....ouch u bet it hurts when a 2 year-old precocious little girl fling herself onto your tummy!) the entire night before. I took a bus to the MRT station grumpily as the whole nation seem to be headed to the Padang for the race....everyone seemed to be so fit, especially the running uncles and aunties.
Anyhow, I waited in front of the finishing line to cheer my friends but unfortunately, I couldn’t catch any of them. It was so totally jam-packed with the human race. The funny deejay was busy commenting on the runners, some half-naked while others were very skimpily dressed. I thought I saw a girl in bikini and another with bunny ears. Hahaha…
I had one of the best meals in the year 2008 (besides the cheap and delicious seafood meal at Hutan Melintang..that was awesome too) at the Waraku Jap restaurant with the Subang Jaya gang. It was superb as we chowed ravenously on high-quality Japanese food, which was my all-time favourite.
Not only that, found the coolest, most happening hip watering holes this side of the Causeway at Clarkes’ Quay and managed to finish my mug of cold beer at the microbrewery. I wished we went into Zouk or something like that, but we were all too tired from the day’s exertion. I could see that my triumphant running mates were almost asleep by the time we downed the beer. Well, I am sure that there is always another excuse to hang out at Clarkes’ Quay!
Friday, December 12, 2008
PS and I traveled separately on different buses as we bought the tickets on separate occasions all thanks to my ‘superb’ organizational skills (or the lack of it!). It was clear all the way but the moment I crossed the straits…boom, lightning struck and rain started falling. Ah, what a wonderful start isn’t it? Darn…
After a long queue at the Immigation, we were off to drop my things and then met up with my dearest pal at the shrine to commercialism, Orchard Road. PS and I walked around in awe of the massive street décor while trying to locate our other friends, CS & WM (otherwise known collectively as the Running Guys).
The Running Guys were hanging around the same area waiting for the late girls (us) while people-watching. I think it was a fruitful season for them as many people (i.e. girls) were in minimal amount of clothing due to the hot weather (it stopped raining for a while but since when does a few drops of water comes in between girls and fashion?)
We spent the whole afternoon and evening alternating between filling our stomach with a lot of drinks and walking around the city centre. Of course we stopped by the Esplanade to view the beautiful roof and the marina bay area which was packed with cranes and construction set. Yup, the Merlion was surrounded by machinery in preparation for the upcoming casino in town, thus we weren’t that interested in staying along (other than the fact that we were totally famished again) Time for carbo-loading before the race!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
We were chatting about the number of times we were called to remove things stuck and so far, a lot of notable patients came to mind. Over the past 2 years here, let me recall the few interesting incidents.
As usual, Ms-aspiring surgeon was on-call and I tried to remove it in the OT but it was almost impossible as the did— slipped even deeper into the bowels the more we try to maneuver the long object out. It took us another day of waiting so that the bowel peristalsis pushed down the object and in the end, we managed to extract it with a lot effort, team-work and coordination.
In conclusion, a piece of friendly advice from the doctor : If you cannot resist inserting any foreign object into your body, do tie a strong string around it! The gesture is much appreciated :-P
Friday, November 28, 2008
This is the continuation from Part 1..a personal audit of 2008
5. Teluk Intan
Hold on, I've been in TI for almost 2 years d..so it's not a surprise that I've come to love this place. Yeah, I've finally figure that life here is slow-going, relaxed and 'cheaper'. It's not that eating out here is that economical, but the major point is that I can't go splurge in major shopping centres and eat in high-end restaurants unlike when I was in KL.
So, it's kinder on my coffers comparatively. Not only that, many more 'markers' of civilization has arrived or is arriving and so I feel very comfortable here. The best part is that I'm allowed to do a lot of surgical interventions and procedures here as long as I show competency, responsibility and proper knowlege in handling the equipments.
Therefore, this is a very nice learning ground for me to hone my surgical skills, knowledge and attitude at this stage of my training.
4. New gadgets
When I lost my stuff to burglars, I was very down (ok, ok, fine..I was depressed for a short while). Yet like what they say, the old has to go before the new can arrive. My new laptop is so cute, light and efficient with more memory and more programs to explore. At the same time, my new PDA is doing fine as it is fast becoming indispensable.
3. Wonderful travel places
If you are one of the handful ardent followers of my blog (thanks a lot for your support, CHEERS!) you would realize that I travelled a lot this year. Seriously, I think I broke a personal record for the amount of travelling I did this year and it's all thanks to a wonderful boss, nice colleagues and a lot of great pals whom I travelled with.
The highlights of this year included Kota Kinabalu, Mount Kinabalu, Kudat, Singapore, Penang, Ipoh, Yunnan (my first time in China) and many wonderful events in KL.
1. Walking with God
Thursday, November 27, 2008
“Oh my God, I’ve been in Teluk Intan for 2 years now. It’s so fast. What have I done for myself and for God?”
Aside from passing 2 exams in the process and learning a lot of surgical skills, initially I’m not sure whether I’ve achieved anything that’s significant. That’s until I begin to analyze each period of time in my life and list down the good things that happened in my supposedly-horrid year and surprise, surprise..this is a great year after here. So, the top 10 reasons why 2008 is not so horrid after all :
10. Physical activities
The fitness freak in me came to life when my buddies encouraged me to start exercising. As I’m a determined person and normally as stubborn as a mule, I don’t usually give up on things. However, it is also not easy to convince myself to do something unless I can achieve something tangible from it, being a very purpose-oriented person.
I began to run regularly, roller-blade with gusto and hike on occasions. For heaven’s sake, I even ran in three 10-km races, which is a big deal for a previously known couch potato and bookworm like me.
Not only that, PETI and so many of the community events that we have organized were quite beneficial to the local population in many ways unexpectedly. We do look forward to more ideas and fun in the year ahead!
7. Wisdom and wit
To be continued….my next 5 bright sparks in 2008 and why I decided that I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, finally!