On friendship, betrayal and forgiveness

The most amazing thing happened to me yesterday. This is because for the first time in my life, I discovered the meaning of human cruelty. In my own humble existence, I had never envisage how mean and inconsiderate a person can be until now. The short 5 words uttered to me may seem insignificant to many people but to me, were almost unbearable as I ended an extremely succinct and surreal conversation in a dazed.












The main issue is not about letting go. I know it’s important to let bygones be bygones. Letting go is part of life and people do move on, some quicker than others. I have no difficulty in letting go as I understand that there is no use expending unnecessary energy over events I cannot alter.

The crux of the matter is how much of respect you should give to someone you consider as a friend and how much of respect I deserve in return. I have lost all respect and amicable trust in one single conversation as a result of possible betrayal and I am not sure if any friendship is possible. It left me wondering what terrible things have I done to my friend to deserve such action. In my soul-searching, I really couldn't single out any bad thing that I have done to earn this mean conversation. In this entire year, IMHO I have poured out only sincere, good-will and warm care.

In order to maintain my dignity, faith and joy, I am considering forgiveness and then forgetting the whole issue and the person on a whole. It will not come easily but I find that bitterness and sarcasm don’t really suit me. So I decide to retain my cheerful optimism and think of the best in every person, no matter how deep the hurt. However, it is still personally crucial that I release forgiveness and obtain closure on this matter, once and for all. As I embark on a path of forgiveness and healing, I guess things can only improve from now on. What goes down must come up and truly when we hit rock bottom, there is only 1 way to go…up.