In the beginning of this month, I was certain that I won’t be in this country by this time next year. The destination? Unknown. The duration? Indefinite.
I guess I’ll just be another figure to the Malaysian government, a small contribution to the brain drain that this country is facing.Yet I’ve come to this point with a lot of thoughts, prayers and consultations with many people who influences my decisions in life.
My short 3-4 years of service to the health of Malaysians has been formative, eventful and to me as a person, fruitful and bittersweet. As I began the plans to formally leave this country, I seek to review the past 20 plus years of my life here and slowly, I know that if I were to aim for greatness, I shall no longer partake of the grass on this side of the fence.
There were previously many factors holding me back and now, there are almost none. Through my many solitary hours in this little quiet town, I reflected on what held me back and through these sessions, I saw a new light at the end of the tunnel and the light is pointing southward. Many people I met seem to encourage me towards this direction and when I pray, I have this inner assurance and peace that I shall go wherever He leads.
This restoration of direction, willpower, determination and hope comes after a period of brokenness and humility. Deliverance arrives and hope is no longer deferred. The way I live shall be transformed and moulded into more like what the Lord has intended it to be.
Why this breakthrough? This new chapter unfolded after a day of DEW ministry in which I forgave many and received much forgiveness too. Inner healing restored overflowing joy, peace, love purity, wholesomeness and courage that I was set free to achieve my true potential in life, totally unshackled and thoroughly humbled by the entire fruitful experience.
So how about now? My destination was revealed and the duration determined as I looked forward to the best that is yet to come.