This was my mood yesterday..filled with gloom and misery. Like the heavy clouds that enveloped the sutera harbour harbour, I was still in a state of low spirit. With a massive drop in my natural high level of energy. I slept for almost 12 hours and woke up groggy. Strangely, after breakfast at a nearby coffee shop in Teluk Intan, the little wontons in the noodle seemed to fill me with a sense of euphoria and hope. Ok, this is not a direct endorsement from the coffee shop uncle ok? Not only that, I received 2 encouraging emails from 2 persons that i didn't expect to reply so fast. Suddenly, I had the impetus to clean up my room and rearrange everything...
Then my mood and outlook lifted..just like the picture below...I began to receive some answers to the questions I have been asking myself. I was initially confused and upset because I didn't know what went wrong. As answers began to trickle in, I understood now that seriously, everything in life has a reason and a purpose. As I cleaned up my room, I meditated upon some encouraging verses from the Bible. Not only that, I drew upon the inner conviction inside me that there is always hope. So as my room became cleaner, so did my inner soul.
I began to thank God for the various gifts that He has showered upon my life. I have a roof above me, a car to drive around, a job, people who love me and care for me and most of all, I still have good health and a sharp mind. I was told about a fellow doctor who had the biggest tragedy in life and now is gone from the face of earth in her thirties due to a sudden illness and she had 2 young children and they are now left on their own.
So as I ponder upon life optimistically and began to work on my studies and my stamina for my 2 projects in april 2008, I know that I will be strong enough, mentally, emotionally and physically to face the next 6 months. My comfort is the fact that I made some inner decisions and that I will alas, patiently carry out those decisions, pending on how this drama of life unfolds
Thanx to some of my frens who dropped in and left some comments as well as my friends who called me and chatted with me, lifting my spirit little by little. Please do continue to pray for me that I will be used as a vessel of grace and mercy for God even in this little town of Teluk Intan and also for the people who need me in my practice and my personal life.